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I am not one of those This is my calling!, or I can choose my customers and I would never work with the undesirable ones! I do not want to belittle their experiences, part of it may be true for them, however after lots of years of hearing from them-- hearing how my negative experiences in prostitution are all my own fault and needs to not be spoken of, I have begun to question their reality as well, not simply my own reality. I was also among those who talked the clients how beautiful it is to see them, how happy I am to work with them, how they are my preferred customers. I actually tried to make myself think it too.
The reality is, of course, I was really pleased to see their cash, and I was likewise very happy to see them leave me alone after our sessions. Cheerfully shouting at them as they left: Thanks! I had a fun time! Invite back! Which in fact implied: Thanks for the money so I can survive another day, I'm so happy that it's over for today. But I will never ever leave this unpleasant task, so I need to try to keep my regulars happy to avoid the risks that come with satisfying new clients.
And I was often informed by clients that my Girlfriend Experience was amazing, almost perfect. I was typically informed that I was totally involved with my customers in our sessions. What sex? I have no memories of the sex part at all, they are all reduced under the well-practised performance. The efficiency that helped me endure in this world given that I was a kid.
The clients wondered if there were really some genuine, hot feelings between us. Lots of messages from them, thanking me for the experience. The clients of course would not understand much better, since I was always on drugs (which none even noticed, I concealed it all so well), extremely addicted to painkillers and benzodiazepines to manage the inhumane working conditions, and I had actually blocked my mind from remembering too much, to secure my inner self, like most of us perform in prostitution. I would just sit on my bed afterwards, taking a look at the money, focusing on it, counting my savings every day to keep myself encouraged, and counting how much more I would have to conserve to retire. To never ever return, to leave and to forget all that had actually happened in prostitution. Ever. To erase each and every single detail of my past.
I was one of those who never had many options. At times I tried to get special needs, but the bureaucracy failed me over and over once again-- my mental health had been extremely shattered all my life, I could not even go to a grocery store alone anymore. I also had no one to assist me, no actual safety web. My self-esteem was very low, beginning with youth abuse, continuing well into adulthood, a nonstop cycle. No education whatsoever. No work experience in any other industry than the sex industry, not even a day.
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All I might concentrate on every minute of my life was to get the inspiration to go on living at all, to breathe, and to go on serving my self-centred, requiring, wife-cheating, clinging, stalking, bargaining, rude customers. I saw no escape.
I had actually quit my cherished kid, merely not to destroy her life as I was gradually messing up mine-- I referred to as a truth I would have destroyed her life simply by being me, even if it was the last thing I wished to take place no matter how I would have attempted to safeguard her, I seemed like I destroyed whatever I touched.
There is so much disrespect in the world of prostitution that reasonably regular human behaviour from customers felt like a present from God. The kids were constantly informed we are not worth anything.
I have actually begun to treat my customers with as much disrespect as they have for me, to start with, involuntarily. If a customer in fact paid the complete rate, I was so appreciative for his additional generosity for the clingy! If a customer didn't verbally or physically attack me too severely, I saw him as a keeper!
I still see no escape prior to I have actually conserved up enough for the rest of my life, however I have actually thought of all this through and through. No more lies! I have actually attempted whatever to go out, however I keep falling back.
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